Michael Wolfe

“I did not want to ‘trade in’ my culture. I wanted access to new meanings.” – How an American writer born of a Jewish father and a Christian mother found spiritual fulfillment in Islam.

After twenty-five years as a writer in America, I wanted something to soften my cynicism. I was searching for new terms by which to see. The way one is raised establishes certain needs in this department. From a pluralist background, I naturally placed great stress on the matters of racism and freedom. Then, in my early twenties, I had gone to live in Africa for three years. During this time, which was formative for me, I did rubbed shoulders with blacks of many different tribes, with Arabs, Berbers, and even Europeans, who were Muslims. By and large these people did not share the Western obsession with race as a social category. In our encounters being oddly colored rarely mattered. I was welcomed first and judged on merit later. By contrast, Europeans and Americans, including many who are free of racist notions, automatically class people racially. Muslims classified people by their faith and their actions. I found this transcendent and refreshing. Malcolm X saw his nation’s salvation in it. “America needs to understand Islam,” he wrote, “because this is the one religion that erases from its society the race problem”.

I was looking for an escape route, too, from the isolating terms of a materialistic culture. I wanted access to a spiritual dimension, but the conventional paths I had known as a boy were closed. My father had been a Jew; my mother Christian. Because of my mongrel background, I had a foot in two religious camps. Both faiths were undoubtedly profound. Yet the one that emphasizes a chosen people I found insupportable; while the other, based in a mystery, repelled me. A century before, my maternal great-great-grandmother’s name had been set in stained glass at the high street Church of Christ in Hamilton, Ohio. By the time I was twenty, this meant nothing to me.

These were the terms my early life provided. The more I thought about it now, the more I returned to my experiences in Muslim Africa. After two return trips to Morocco, in 1981 and 1985, I came to feel that Africa, the continent, had little to do with the balanced life I found there. It was not, that is, a continent I was after, nor an institution, either. I was looking for a framework I could live with, a vocabulary of spiritual concepts applicable to the life I was living now. I did not want to “trade in” my culture. I wanted access to new meanings.

After a mid-Atlantic dinner I went to wash up in the bathroom. During my absence a quorum of Hasidim lined up to pray outside the door. By the time I had finished, they were too immersed to notice me. Emerging from the bathroom, I could barely work the handle. Stepping into the aisle was out of the question.

I could only stand with my head thrust into the hallway, staring at the congregation’s backs. Holding palm-size prayer books, they cut an impressive figure, tapping the texts on their breastbones as they divined. Little by little the movements grew erratic, like a mild, bobbing form of rock and roll. I watched from the bathroom door until they were finished, then slipped back down the aisle to my seat.

We landed together later that night in Brussels. Reboarding, I found a discarded Yiddish newspaper on a food tray. When the plane took off for Morocco, they were gone.

I do not mean to imply here that my life during this period conformed to any grand design. In the beginning, around 1981, I was driven by curiosity and an appetite for travel. My favorite place to go, when I had the money, was Morocco. When I could not travel, there were books. This fascination brought me into contact with a handful of writers driven to the exotic, authors capable of sentences like this, by Freya Stark:

The perpetual charm of Arabia is that the traveller finds his level there simply as a human being; the people’s directness, deadly to the sentimental or the pedantic, like the less complicated virtues; and the pleasantness of being liked for oneself might, I think, be added to the five reasons for travel given me by Sayyid Abdulla, the watchmaker; “to leave one’s troubles behind one; to earn a living; to acquire learning; to practice good manners; and to meet honorable men”.

I could not have drawn up a list of demands, but I had a fair idea of what I was after. The religion I wanted should be to metaphysics as metaphysics is to science. It would not be confined by a narrow rationalism or traffic in mystery to please its priests. There would be no priests, no separation between nature and things sacred. There would be no war with the flesh, if I could help it. Sex would be natural, not the seat of a curse upon the species. Finally, I did want a ritual component, daily routine to sharpen the senses and discipline my mind. Above all, I wanted clarity and freedom. I did not want to trade away reason simply to be saddled with a dogma.

The more I learned about Islam, the more it appeared to conform to what I was after.

Most of the educated Westerners I knew around this time regarded any strong religious climate with suspicion. They classified religion as political manipulation, or they dismissed it as a medieval concept, projecting upon it notions from their European past.

It was not hard to find a source for their opinions. A thousand years of Western history had left us plenty of fine reasons to regret a path that led through so much ignorance and slaughter. From the Children’s Crusade and the Inquisition to the transmogrified faiths of nazism and communism during our century, whole countries have been exhausted by belief. Nietzsche’s fear, that the modern nation-state would become a substitute religion, have proved tragically accurate. Our century, it seemed to me, was ending in an age beyond belief, which believers inhabited as much as agnostics.

Regardless of church affiliation, secular humanism is the air westerners breathe, the lens we gaze through. Like any world view, this outlook is pervasive and transparent. It forms the basis of our broad identification with democracy and with the pursuit of freedom in all its countless and beguiling forms. Immersed in our shared preoccupations, one may easily forget that other ways of life exist on the same planet.

At the time of my trip, for instance, 650 million Muslims with a majority representation in forty-four countries adhered to the formal teachings of Islam. In addition, about 400 million more were living as minorities in Europe, Asia and the Americas. Assisted by postcolonial economics, Islam has become in a matter of thirty years a major faith in Western Europe. Of the world’s great religions, Islam alone was adding to its fold.

My politicized friends were dismayed by my new interest. They all but universally confused Islam with the machinations of half a dozen middle eastern tyrants. The books they read, the new broadcasts they viewed depicted the faith as a set of political functions. Almost nothing was said of its spiritual practice. I liked to quote Mae West to them: “Anytime you take religion for a joke, the laugh’s on you”.

Historically a Muslim sees Islam as the final, matured expression of an original religion reaching back to Adam. It is as resolutely monotheistic as Judaism, whose major Prophets Islam reveres as links in a progressive chain, culminating in Jesus and Muhammad. Essentially a message of renewal, Islam has done its part on the world stage to return the forgotten taste of life’s lost sweetness to millions of people. Its book, the Qur’an, caused Goethe to remark, “You see, this teaching never fails; with all our systems, we cannot go, and generally speaking no man can go, further”.

Traditional Islam is expressed through the practice of five pillars. Declaring one’s faith, prayer, charity, and fasting are activities pursued repeatedly throughout one’s life. Conditions permitting, each Muslim is additionally charged with undertaking a pilgrimage to Mecca once in a lifetime. The Arabic term for this fifth rite is Hadj. Scholars relate the word to the concept of kasd, “aspiration,” and to the notion of men and women as travelers on earth. In Western religions pilgrimage is a vestigial tradition, a quaint, folkloric concept commonly reduced to metaphor. Among Muslims, on the other hand, the hadj embodies a vital experience for millions of new pilgrims every year. In spite of the modern content of their lives, it remains an act of obedience, a profession of belief, and the visible expression of a spiritual community. For a majority of Muslims the hadj is an ultimate goal, the trip of a lifetime.

As a convert I felt obliged to go to Makkah. As an addict to travel I could not imagine a more compelling goal.

The annual, month-long fast of Ramadan precedes the hadj by about one hundred days. These two rites form a period of intensified awareness in Muslim society. I wanted to put this period to use. I had read about Islam; I had joined a Mosque near my home in California; I had started a practice. Now I hoped to deepen what I was learning by submerging myself in a religion where Islam infuses every aspect of existence.

I planned to begin in Morocco, because I knew that country well and because it followed traditional Islam and was fairly stable. The last place I wanted to start was in a backwater full of uproarious sectarians. I wanted to paddle the mainstream, the broad, calm water.


  1. Sulimon says:

    MashaAllah! Welcome to Islam!

  2. Assalamu alaikum, brother Michael. I enjoyed reading the story of your journey to Islam. Mashaallaah. A greast read. I hope to hear more from you, more of your travel experiences. wassallaam.

  3. Marie Alexandra Pérez says:

    Islam is the biggest by far that satan uses ..there is a savior weare born bad is our nature WE NEED CHRIST JESUSCHTIST LORD AND SAVIOR…JOHN 3:16 John 3:16
    King James Version (KJV)
    16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

  4. Jerry Mikell says:

    You are a nut.

  5. Alasan Bah says:

    Marie May Allah guide you because u are in the wrong path why not do as many are doing read the holy quran and see for yourself

  6. Marie, why don't you check and read the prefaces of the 1952 , 1972 revised standard versions of the bible and find out what the 32 christian scholars of the highest eminent backed by 50 cooperating denominations ( which includes your own denomination ) had to say about the King James version of the bible and JOHN 3:16 among some other verses in it. They said " The King James version have grave deffects. And these deffects are so many and so serious as to call for revisions". So they went and revised it. And in their revision, John 3:16 " For God so love the world, that He gave His only begotten son that whosoever believeth in him shall not perish. but have everlasting life". You know marie, this verse is thrown out of the revised standard version of the bible as a frabrication not by muslims or hindus, but by 32 christian scholars of the highest eminent backed by 50 coorperating denominations. By the way read the prefaces in the revised standard versions of the bible (1952, 1972) in other to further understand why.

  7. Assalamu Allaikum brother Michael, What a wonderful story…. May Almighty Allah continue to guide all of us thru his right path. Amin

  8. marie unfortunately the king James version is not accurate it is full of defects, the Qu'ran was revealed to correct all the man made misconceptions of religion.Please read the qu'ran before you go spouting off about the devil using Islam because that is not even close to truth

  9. Monica Aida Bihi says:

    It would be wise to educate yourself by opening books and actually reading in order to think before you shame yourself with such words that only promote your state of ignorance. Try it at least, you might surprise yourself and possibly those around you. Wish you well in your search, if you deserve it, you will be blessed with true knowledge. If.

  10. Monica Aida Bihi says:

    Mr. Wolfe, Thank you for writing this inspirational and much needed article. You put into words so many things that I feel and wanted to express, I am sharing this wonderful piece with my friends and family because I truly feel it will help them understand me and my spiritual choices in a much more intellectual way incha'Allah!

  11. Abdul G Mohideen says:

    Thanks for sharing your journey, May Allah Bless you!

  12. Anonymous says:

    I am an English lady, in Sydney, married to a Muslim 27 years my junior.I have ventured into all the major belief systems in the world, and have found to my fascination, that the foundation of Islam is SO logical, and SO workable I have been unable to ignore. My understanding of the depth and science of the Quran is being constantly nurtured by facts and historical proof of the wisdom of this incredible writing…and looking at the chaos in the world today….truly speaking I see that the one and only way we humans currently have at our disposal, is the way of Islam…being brothers and sisters, caring for each other, trusting each other, and leaving our ultimate destiny, and our day to day lives, resolutely in the hands of the One who we MUST know is responsible for this thing we call LIFE – our very existence and that of all life on earth and beyond. Most importantly is the enormous freedom to befelt, living in love, and total FAITH, and knowledge in and of Allah, our creator and suatainer of all. Ayesha Noor

  13. Good for you Monica, but, bad and dangerous for most of us infidels, yep, really scary.

  14. Monica Aida Bihi says:

    Thank you Jerry Beckett. It is comments like yours than strengthen my faith and respect for Islam even more. Yep.

  15. Monica Aida Bihi says:

    Thank you Jerry Beckett. It is comments like yours that strengthen my faith and respect for Islam even more. Yep. Thank you indeed.

  16. I am sort of dismayed by all of this nonsense. Correct if I am wrong, but, wasn't it Muslim Jihadist that flew the planes into the World Trade Center, the Pentagon and thank God an open field in PA? Almost on a daily basis we read of a religion that propel people like the nut Hasan to yell Allah Akbar and kill innocent military and civilian personnel in the name of Allah. What exactly does the Quran direct or aspire Muslims to do regarding infidels/non-believers? I am sort of perplexed that Muslim fathers here in the U.S. murder/kill their daughters in the name of honor killings, a religion that appears to define women as chattel, as less valuable than a male, isn't all life precious in this religion? How about the little girl that just wanted to attend school and learn and was shot in the head for her desire to gain knowledge? If this is the peaceful, loving religion that is being praised here, how can all this be, of what and how can one describe killing innocent people in the name of Allah, anyone that doesn't happen to share the same beliefs/religion that compels these people to commit these atrocities, yes, how can that be?

  17. Yussuf Ali Mallam Hassam says:

    Christ will only attest against you on the day of resurrection and on that day He won't save you. A good advice, seek some knowledge on Islam from the Quran itself before it's too late sister.

  18. Anonymous says:

    Alasan Bah I've read the Koran, and it tells me to kill other people. If you are an observant Muslim, then I have to assume that you are a murderer.

  19. Mohamed Ahmed says:

    zerogee4me Not true, the Quran forbids killing of any innocent person regardless of their faith. In fact the Quran is the only religious scripture that specifically forbids the killing of innocent person.

    "Because of that, We decreed upon the Children of Israel that whoever kills a soul unless for a soul or for corruption [done] in the land – it is as if he had slain mankind entirely. And whoever saves one – it is as if he had saved mankind entirely. And our messengers had certainly come to them with clear proofs. Then indeed many of them, [even] after that, throughout the land, were transgressors." Quran 5:32

  20. Marie, zerogee4me, Let me response to the verse you quoted in terms of logic:

    1. Do God love the world so much? IF so, why would he create the end of time?

    2. Do God love the world so much? IF so, he wouldnt have flooded Noah's people and brought punishment to people of Lot.

    3. What will happen to Noah's, Lot's and Pharaoh's people? Did God punish them because of love or anger?

    You see Marie, even a part of the verse is illogical..how can you take it to your heart and turns it into a belief?
    I stated the illogical part only..but the other part of "addition and concoction" of the bible were explained in details by my brothers and sisters above.

  21. Troy Spiller says:

    Islam, I believe in the "Holy Bible" and nothing will change that, I personally hold nothing against the nation of islam or as to say the Middle Eastern Countries everybody has a right to be on this planet or we would not be here "Correct" I am sure that God or Allah did not put certain races on this planet to be hunted down and killed like big game hunters do in the wild but with this religion you guys seem to think this is the case "Why" If you honestly think Allah is true and good and he is the creator then you have to ask yourself why did Allah put me on this planet? I am not a source of food unless you are canibals, does Allah say to hunt, kill and eat other races? AGAIN IF ALLAH IS REAL AND HE WAS THE CREATOR THEN WHY DID HE CREATE ANYBODY OTHER THAN MUSLIMS????? Think about it for a minute, now if my beliefs said that I needed to try and eliminate Muslims I would have to question that because if God wanted Muslims dead then why did he create them? do you get my point? Question: If Muslims want Americans dead and despise our way of life then why are you people here? why can't you obey the laws set forth in the United States of America? When I visit the Middle East I respect your laws and way of life for it is not my place to judge or decide if you live or die It would take God or Allah to personally visit me and hand me a gun before I would claim a life and honestly I don't think that will happen do you? Seriously why are any of us here? Should we all commit mass suicide to please Allah or God is that the answer? all religions have their flaws because the Bible and the Quran has been touched by Human hands and rewritten somewhat not completely changed but c'mon think about my questions WHY? do we need to die because one or the other creator put life on this planet and it makes absolutely no sense to have put a people on this planet that one or the other creator wanted dead now does it? Muslims are smart people why hasn't any Muslims really stepped back and asked these same questions? I mean no dis-respect whatsoever I just have some serious questions I am good with your choice of religion with the exception of everybody must die it makes no sense at all because we would not be here to start with..

  22. Mayimuna Ali says:

    In point of fact, of the 3 so-called Abrahamic faiths, Islam is the MOST monotheistically pure! This is why Allah (swt) has chosen it for all mankind and for all time! See Qur'an 5:3. The Yusuf Ali translation reads as follows–This day have I perfected your religion for you, completed My favor upon you and have chosen for you Islam as your religion.

  23. No it doesn't you are jewish ,infidels or Muslim and Muslims kill infidels open your eyes worship as you will but don'try to perpetuate the lies about what Islam is I read the koran you must think people r stupid I get my peace from Jesus Christ .he doesn't suggest killing he died for our sins .but you belie ve what you want

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